A stream of Lies

Emerging from the corner
Tears still streaming
Eyes to the floor...
A knock at the door...

I look through a hole and see you there,
That cheesy grin, those blue eyes...
Why now?

I'm not ready for this.
I want to tell you everything,
But...
I cannot

You would leave if you knew
I would never be the same...
You help me unknowingly
Slowly healing my pain...

A simple smile
And a thought is cast...

Will these feelings ever leave?
I cannot hide forever...

I stand behind the door
Breathing deeply
With lungs filled
Eyes rubbed and smeared
I open the door and fear the worst

You see nothing...
A kiss being my only greeting

I could live with this
Only thing is
I am forever sceaming...
Screaming on the inside

I want release...
I want to start over...
I want to leave...
I want truth...

Before i speak
I silence the voices
Drown then quickly
One thought is all it takes

I'M ALIVE!!!!